Oh NO! No Paxil, NO Neurontin again

I ran out again with no money to pay for anything. I was approved for Medicaid last week, but they are awaiting two pieces of paper, so I am not active in the system, and my private insurance was already cancelled. AAAAARRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHH. I was very anxious just thinking about what happened to me in October with withdrawal. I tried to get a 30 day supply with a coupon to get it free, but my doctor hasn't answered me, even as of today (I just called). So, right now I have gotten a week's supply of both for $30 to tide me over. I paid for it myself. Never a dull moment in cripville. I went away overnight to a friend's who is very funny, and she made me laugh alot, thank god. I was getting depressed again. I feel like my life is two steps forward, one step back, financially. No filling in for the school for two weeks now. No paycheck from them yet. No Disability benefits, no unemployment, But, I still have a roof over my head and a vehicle that runs. I can be grateful for that, and I am. I have been sober now, no drinks for 75 days (this time).