Denied!

I was officially denied Social Security benefits today, now I must appeal. This whole situation really feels like a circus. Yesterday and the day before I was so depressed about my situation and today I woke up in such a different frame of mind for no reason I can pinpoint, but it is a good thing. I could not have tolerated this rejection yesterday. Today, well, today is today. I woke up feeling good, and the sun was out. I filled out a job application for a day care center, and they were willing to have me come in for a "trial" with the kids to see how I do, but the pay was so poor, and besides the place was dingy, and smelled of urine. I didn't get a good feel there. So, no go even though I am desperate. I feel guilty but what good would it do to work in a situation I am not comfortable with that pays so poorly? So, more applying. Now I am applying for a part time reporter's job for my local paper. I don't have the experience writing for a paper, but my writing skills are good. We'll see. There is so much to worry about I can't even respond anymore emotionally. I think this means I am numb.