Feeling Desperate

I am feeling desperate today. I still do not have a job. I am very low on money and just got my first bill for COBRA coverage. I have to pay at least 2 months right now, possibly 3 right now. It's not my fault they didn't bill me sooner and now it's all due.
I still do not have a job. I keep applying. I keep applying.
I have to remind myself that I haven't given up. As long as I keep trying.
I am feeling panicked though. A relative is helping me money wise, but it is not enough for all the costs I have. I don't want to admit this to my relative. I only asked for what I would get if I were on disability so that when (if) I get approved I can pay her back. Augh. This feeling feels awful. I am not sorry I left my job (because of my supervisor) but this is new territory for me. Major economic insecurity. Major. There is an office job locally that is every other weekend that I have seen and I don't want to work weekends, but I may have to bite the bullet and apply. It's not much money, but it would be something, which would be better than nothing. This is really hard.