Discouraged

I am feeling discouraged today. Actually I am discouraged for some part of every day. I don't have a job. I got a call for one today, but the physical requirements were not clear in the ad in the paper, and I knew i couldn't do it. CRAP. I feel like I will never get anything. I don't mind not working as long as I can keep busy (which I can) but I need to make some money. I will be in deep shit in about a month from now. Perhaps I will apply for welfare. I am not beneath that, just so I can survive. That is all I want, for now. I just want to be able to have enough so that I don't have to do (I don't know where this is headed). I don't want to live an extravagant life, I just want to have enough to survive on. I'm too overqualified for the stuff I am applying for. That is my problem. But, there isn't enough human service jobs out there for me to apply for that I can actually do. SHIT. This is a very un 12 step like attitude to have.