Creativity

I woke up at 5:30 and couldn't get back to sleep, so I got up. I am feeling creative today. I started an art project over a year ago that I have not finished. I started to paint an old pair of shoes to represent how I felt about my feet, and my disabilty, but I never finished it because it became too painful, emotionally. I wonder if I can finish it soon. I have old sandals and another pair of old shoes. I was going to paint them all as a series. I hate it when I lose my motivation. I get excited about new projects but then they go bust, or I go bust. There is a part of me that wants to just stay home and be an artist. What money is there in that? None. Unless you are incredibly good and can sell yourself and your stuff. It's nice out today. I have to go outside. I am getting stiff from sitting more. At work I was always up and down. I just pushed my way through it. Like all of my life, just push on through like a blind mole in an underground hole.