Desperate Housebounds

I think I will write a new show called "Desperate Housebounds" after being home for 6 days without going anywhere after my shoulder surgery last Fri. This has been really hard, although today has been much better. This being homebound sucks. I couldn't do it full time, I don't know how people stand it. It has brought up so many painful feelings of isolation from my childhood surgeries. I don't want to say goodbye to anyone over the phone or in person. I don't like feeling so helpless and needing so much help from others. I felt so sad until today--I don't even know why. Walking with one arm in a sling threw off my balance, which I didn't even think of before the fact. I have this fear of growing older and becoming more disabled. On the positive side, other than my arm the rest of me feels better not running around so much and overdoing things. I am glad to be out of work for a week. I need a new job. It would be wonderful to work just part time.