Still hanging in there

I haven't looked to see how long it has been since I have visited here. Things are OK, but the last week or so has been hellish. I ran out of my antidepressant and didn't have the money to get more. I started going through withdrawal only I didn't realize that was my problem. All I can tell you is that my anxiety level shot through the roof, I wasn't sleeping well, and I was having night sweats and then shivering. (Sometimes in the day too). I started to think I wanted to be dead. I thought my problem was what I was going through. I gave in and put the Paxil on my credit card because the local mental health center didn't have any in stock when I went there. I just needed someone to help me, and it felt like no one could or would. Just when things were bleakest a friend called and offered me a temp job in her office. Well, her boss offered it but I found out from my friend first. I will be there until Thanksgiving. I also have a job interview on Wed. of this week. I am hanging in there, day by day.I won't tell you it isn't difficult. A you can tell, it is.